Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.
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Andrew,
I am lost without you. I don’t even know where to begin
How are you doing in your life without me in it?
I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I don’t have. It's really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let him go but it is even more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay.
I hate the way I could never hate you.
I let you go Because no matter what I want, you wanted me to be out of your life. You said if i love you so much, I have to let you go and I did it.... When my heart was breaking apart...
still here I am, hurting and breaking
I know every day I will wait if my phone will ring, I will force myself to sleep, Maybe somehow i can catch you in my dreams.
Without you, oh, without you Andrew,
this world is too empty to live.
even cursing you won't make me feel better. This heavy and deep sadness in my heart doesn't let me to get up again, to move forward, to walk.
My love for you, comes from the deepest part of my heart. That’s the reason why I died inside when you left.
because you took a piece of my heart and left a hole in that!
The more I love, the more I feel the pain.
You never realized what was happening to me, all the time I was begging for your love, you pretended it is somewhere in your heart, but I never saw it anymore. today, i found out why. it was dead. a long time ago...
I wonder how you are now, I don’t know if you are OK,
or ....
or ....
I wish you are happy now,; now that I'm removed from your life. Now, that you don't have anyone to break her heart every day, Now, that you don't have to be bad and unkind....I wish you are satisfied, now, that I know how deep your hate for me is...
I just know, from now on, I will feel one thing,
Just MISSING you All the time,
and I just will do one thing,
Just looking for who I met in my dreams, my imaginations and my tears.
The reality is as dark as your heart is... full of hate, disappointment, loneliness, and depression.
i will find my happiness in LOVING you, even if you're gone and are loving someone else.
Maybe it will be good to have someone somewhere in this world, to LOVE you when you don't love them,
maybe it's good...
maybe it's good...
