Dec 01 2010-2

Missing you, Loving you, Needing you, Wanting you...

All I can feel, All I desire for.. 

Since you left, I could never laugh again,

Since you left, all colors turned into black,

Since you left, my tears are all over on my face,

Since you left, I can't leave my home. Because I don't have a reason for coming back home...

you are not there, waiting for me anymore,and knowing this is killing me...

Dec 01 2010-1

How can you just walk away from me, when all I can do is watch you leave me?

We shared tears, pain and happiness...

You're the only one who really knew me at all. I wish I could just make you turn around and see me cry. There's so much I need to say to you, so many reasons why you're the only one who really knew me at all, But you're gone...

Come back to me, Please come back to me just ONE MORE TIME...

Nov 30 2010-2

My  Love,

The fifth day! Without you....

I can't begin to say how much it hurts. All I can do is crying. 

Crying out loud... Keep calling your name out, keep begging GOD to make you miss me just, just one more time, miss me enough to contact me.

I am a crazy girl now. I hug RED, and dance with him!!!!!! I still am waiting for him to turn into YOU and I see you are smiling at me again. I never knew how precious that smile was until

I lost it...

Baby,

When you are reading this, You won't be able to ask me how I was feeling these days.

I feel my heart is destroyed. Like someone is walking on it. I feel breathing is the hardest thing I can do. I feel I am dead.

I am so sorry for every moment I could share with you but I stupidly lost them for nothing.

I wish, I wish one time, before my death, before my body say good bye to this world, I wish just for one time, I could share a short loving moment with you. just for one more time...

And my baby,

Even if you don't share that moment with me, Just Know for the rest of your life, 

Wherever I am, dead or alive, my heart will be for you, and ONLY you.

Nov 30 2010-1

I'm staring at your picture now,

Touching your lips, your nose, your eyes, your cheeks with the tip of my finger, 

Trying to imagine hearing your voice, trying to imagine telling you how much I LOVE YOU, 

Trying to make you understand that I will die without you,

Ask you to please LOVE me one more time,

Beg you to come back to me,

Crying again and again,

But

I am still here,

Alone,

In the darkness and emptiness, 

And you; I don't know, Maybe happy for breaking my heart...