Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Mar 22 2011

Everything is so funny!
You called me on my birthday, you were like a dream coming true! You were kind, loving and sweet!
But because it was a DREAM, is gone now!
I can't say how much I loved you more on those days, I was so happy, even with the problems i was dealing with, I was happy for having someone on this earth who IS DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH ME...

but it's gone, you're gone again....
I don't want to call you anymore, I feel destroyed, i feel broken, I feel like someone who is happy as long as she is sleeping... I can not live without you, NOT only because I'm in love with you, also, because I can not find one small reason for wanting another man or being with them.
I really love you, you will read these sentences so soon. you might not find me then. I am telling you, on these days of MY NEW YEAR, I am so lonely, but i don't want to share my lonely moments with anyone else. 
I was not with you because I was alone without you!
AND I will stay alone because I can only be with you...
I love you SO MUCH

Friday, March 4, 2011

March 04-You left me again!

It was only a few days ago when you said you can not LIVE without me!
and it was today, when you cursed me and left me alone....

You're right baby, you don't love me... it is all  your imagination... you can leave me alone and don't care about anything else anymore...
I will never be happy for the days I wasted and I hurt your heart... but I will never be happy for the days you spent with me, but your heart never was with me, you kept breaking me, breaking my heart and showing me nothing but HATE...
it seems i am nothing in your life and you just lied when you said you can't live without me... 
you can, as easy as you can hang on phone, the only connection i am having with you... yes, you really hate me, i wish i could hate you... i wish...